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Freak on The Inside

by Night Terror

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1.
Wreck It 04:20
In the day time livin in a dreamland Nights are full of mischief and games I've spent this life in pain Tortured by humanizing agony Drowning in seas of anxiety  Thought patterns keep me in bondage  Just let me leave this body And heal Disciplined society's wreckage  I followed your rules for far too long My body crumbles beneath me It's a game I never agreed to play  With every move I make, you win I'm left standing with nothing but pain Why can't I heal This is a nightmare A world on fire Time takes its toll on me Depraved of what you call free I'm lost inside this place It was never built for me Now your talking back the promise  That I could be anything  I'm livin in the devils garden Don't need no sunshine You broke me, you broke me But that's my burden to bare Handed over the last drop of life I can not heal
2.
Addiction 04:49
Find the places where my soul lights, guiding me to serenity, oh this eternity Oh my god I've lost this purity, Lift this tragic disease from me I can not hold on. Lost grip on reality One deep breath then I exhale   Hoping for a more purposeful life Can I find an escape or path  Looking for a firm bedrock to Build a life, set it right, get back to the dream I had Build a life, set it right, get back to the dream I had Failure Failure Failure Failure I keep trying to succeed My will seems to have no meaning Every day it's a struggle In the places you have no trouble I can See your life has meaning Mine is only disorder One last time I try to escape I loose sight__Can't win this fight I'm trying, I'm fighting, I'm dying, I cant hold on. Find a way to rid this disease I turn to methods that don't appeal to me. Finding my self turning over A higher power gets me sober Finding Serenity Humility Absence of this ego I Do The work to get my life back Taking nothing for granted Finding change in life I never knew existed Today, I live on life's terms. Today I live on life's terms Today I live on life's terms Today I live on life's terms
3.
Go Now 04:05
I started off this way, I was Falling from the beginning I watched the scenes roll by overwhelmed and confused Attracted to things that seemed different, creative I felt like I belonged somewhere else, never fitting in This darkness rides This darkness rises  Manipulation and lies They tried to make me something i'm not Never felt like I belonged  I hadn't even begun to learn about life This darkness rides This darkness rises  Outcast for being different for wanting more, for feeling Caught up in where to turn, I felt alone  I spent so much time in my head, fantasizing about a better life I found something comforting in the darkness.  This darkness rides This darkness rises  This darkness rides This darkness rises  All my life, being told what to do You shouldn't force your beliefs on someone their yours This darkness rides This darkness rises  When I found what I liked they criticized me When I did what I wanted I was outcast I've fallen to the darkness I've left society behind I gave it all the chances  I just didn't fit This darkness rides This darkness rises  I've fallen to the darkness
4.
Maxxed out 03:53
5.
Your not hidden in the shadows You're not a man of desire You take the dignity of women, your scum Lowest form of life Preying on fantasies You're the fucking disease Corruption of human kind Lost dreams and hopeless tries Soulless faces and bodies that you desire Never ending and breaking them down Turning their world inside out You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place Take your disease to hell and dissipate  You're no king of this jungle Just a waste of their time Full of lies and deceit, You're nothing but a joke Praying on weakness With the games  you play You have no right, Your wrecking their lives They are strong, against your sleaze Time to pack your ideals and just leave You are corrupted, you are broken This wont end well, it never does Your darkness turns souls black You think, you can attack You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place Your not hidden in the shadows You're not a man of desire You take the dignity of women, your scum The lowest form of life Preying on fantasies You're the fucking disease Corruption of human kind Lost dreams and hopeless tries Soulless faces and bodies that you desire Never ending and breaking them down Turning their world inside out You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place You're out of your mind Get out of this place
6.
Viral Attack 04:23
Its the year 2020 The world is under attack, a virus is spreading quickly from county to county, city to city. Its currently unknown the cause for this pandemic. Symptoms include Belligerence, misinformation, deceit, betrayal and fear.  No one is safe I want to be left alone, tell the people I'm not home.  Can't you see you're tearing me apaaaaaaaaaaaaart In dissolution it's absolution, you're killing me and I'm killing you.  Time is taken This is Devastation  Spreading lies Drowning words   Betrayal running through these veins Time is taken This is Devastation  Spreading lies Drowning words I'll end you with the push of a button.  I want to hurt you, you want to hurt me This is an online civil war  You never see me, you can't deceive me, I've got my memes to prove you wrong. The heart of the matter, is all lies   Drowning you out because I don't want to hear the truth Time is taken This is Devastation  Spreading lies Drowning words Betrayal running through these veins This is a war, between you and me I have every right to be free.  I'll shut you down , I'll take you out You'll never take the time to hear me out.  We can't be friends when this war ends I've invested too much into ___fake news Time is taken This is Devastation  Spreading lies Drowning words Betrayal running through these veins The war has ended.  Everyone started unplugging from the system, only to find that they were being deceived and manipulated. The control system has been shut down. New leaders have taken over to repair the damage. We don't know what's next, but what we do know is... Nothing will ever be the same.
7.
Beloved 04:36
Cast out the light for me, I've found you You are my everything My world Oh, when darkness falls you call to me Whispering  I was lifeless, now I feel exuberant You didn't know me before You wouldn't have wanted to  Not like I am now I was so dead inside I have made my mistakes My darkness shows I'm working to change  Healing everyday You fill me up inside Grasp of your hand Intertwined with mine Our rapturous song Circulates our love.  We covet lasting devotion With each benevolent breath    You lift me up and share your vooooooiiceee I love you You always believed in me We celebrate this day Pushing bond and boundaries  Creating us Were flying, growing exponentially Enchantment and mystery  Our adventures soar This emotion's rising towards a pinnacle I have no remoooorrrrrese
8.
Falling time 03:22
What do I see from behind these dead eyes It's falling time again I see what has betide where my life resides No prosperity  There is no virtue  -  in this place I have no stake  -  in this game Alone among  -  the grains I've lost my way Fear of confined disorder crushes my world  Disengage control  I appease this body with observant anticipation Ascendance in Intervals There is no virtue  -  in this place I have no stake  -  in this game Alone among  -  the grains I've lost my way What do I see from behind these dead eyes It's falling time again I've tried everything my will has to give depressed and alone I find my life on the ground  It's Falling time again It's Falling time again It's Falling time agaaaaaiiiiinn  No entity can save me now When I'm alone  and embracing my sorrows my life fades away Taking part of me to other worlds This is my escape What do I see from behind these dead eyes It's falling time again
9.

about

Freak On The Inside is both a musical endeavor I've been wanting to do for 33 years, the stories of my life experience and issues I feel strongly about. From the depression, addiction, love and heartbreak, to disgust with male chauvinists and the human virus that plagues this world. Everything I had went into this album, and still it is only the beginning.

I've learned so much about myself and creating different music styles during this process. I have no intention of stopping here. I have so much more music to give back to the artists who inspired me for many years and the fans of my music and art.

The album title is personal, based on my medical condition called Primary Ciliary Dyskinesia (PCD) and Dextrocardia. I truly am a freak on the inside."

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released December 18, 2020

NIGHT TERROR appears courtesy of Tigersqwak Records

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